random video post


Imogen Heap :
first a frou frou video cos it's purdy and she rocks my planet


her vlog, she's crazy <3

and a live cos i think it's amazing watching her record all her background vocals and noises and use them, just her and her keyboard




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in other news: 2 jarb interviews today. i hate interviews. oh well.

i found this song on an old mixedtape(CD) in my folder of ancient cds. i couldn't remember for a while who sang it, i just remembered all the words. it always made me feel dreamy and sad.





for erika. <3

(the lyrics)

since feeling is first
who pays any attention
to the syntax of things
will never wholly kiss you;

wholly to be a fool
while Spring is in the world

my blood approves,
and kisses are a far better fate
than wisdom
lady i swear by all flowers. Don't cry
--the best gesture of my brain is less than
your eyelids' flutter which says

we are for eachother: then
laugh, leaning back in my arms
for life's not a paragraph

And death i think is no parenthesis



ee cummings

of how to feel

( hannah has the best ideas )

yay !

(x-posted from myspaz)

all of this alice in wonderland stuff...

the story or the character has been brought up in like 3 conversations in the last week by three different people, and just surfing the net today i stumbled across 3 distinctly different references that all tied into the original reference. so it's 3 million kinds of stuck in my brain.


i picked up the book(s) today at a used bookstore today (3 bucks 1960's copy with original art woot!) so i'm gonna read it all again. i'm feeling like the stories have something to tell me that the universe is poking me in the eye with and i am just not catching.

i did it ! or most of it ! in one day ! i have like, lastminutecrap to do like, find random socks i cannot seem to find right now, and another load of laundry so i can have my favorite pair of jeans, and of course tooth brush and shampoo and hair straightener and shaver thingy and those last minute things i need to use on monday anyway that were to be done the last night before i leave. so i already time budgeted for those. so i am mostly good!
i know myself. i probably forgot and will continue to forget something MONUMENTALLY important until im actually boarding the plane but oh well. (oh yea sneakers or beach type shoes, i knew there was something !)
and ummmm.
i have to mail my nephew his 6th (!!!!!!!!!!!!) bday card before i leave (it's the 12th) cos i wont be back til the 9th and it will not get there in time if i wait that loooong.


why is nobody online tonight ?
i am lonely :(



there are many persons coming over tonight who are friends of chima. i have gotten to the point of tolerating or actually liking a few of them. some i pretend alot. company is nice tho. i need to put on my social face and fake fake fake cos being alone lately is bad bad bad for me. part of (huge !!!!!!) why im sooooo looking forward to coming home and seeing youuuuu. it will be gooooooood for naunners brainnsssss.
i miss alcamahol tho!
thank gawd for narcotics <3 which save my soulllllll


EDIT:i was babbling at hanners on gchat and i said this so i am adding to post:

god the weirdest side effect of these pills is that my feet always feel like iw as sitting on them and they are just 'waking up'. its so creeepyyyy. hahah.

/endrant

So I am headed to portland in march for a few days. I have to apologise to scotty firstly, cos i guess i didn't make it too clear on the dates, and i'm a bad friend. the guffies night will be march 5th ! we are also going dancing saturday night at embers if you wanna come play :) :) :) it shall be fabulous fun, the more the merrier.

i'm excited to go, and that's making chima pretty pissy. i guess he thinks i was never this excited when making a trip to go see him... but *scratch head* im pretty sure i always was. i dunno what's up with him being so insecure lately. he never used to give a shit who i hung out with or what i did, but now he's always asking me who i'm talking to and looking at my computer screen. *shrug* i dunno i wont have a spaz about it, it's just curious.

i think it will be GOOD to spend a week apart. we see each other 24/7. home, then drive to work together (work in different departments tho) and then maybe lunch, and drive home again. sometimes we putz around but i dont really know anyone here i would hang out with on purpose, they're mostly chima's friends. people from work are ok but everyone here is married at 20, so no guy buddies without jealous wives. who needs that drama.
anyway i think it will be good to go goof around, hang out with my loveys, go to the ocean, generally be an idiot for 5 days and let off some steam.
it would be good to actually look forward to coming back.
i know i'll be exhausted once the trip is over, if i do it right.

i shall be staying with the hanners most of the time i think. i've got an overnighter at the ocean that i THINK is happening. i guess we'll see how that goes, my companion for that trip is flaky. but i so so so want to walk on the beach at midnight, and we always have to leave early to get back, so i never get to. THIS TIME THO! !!! <3


ok , enough serious stuff.
i got a new hair straightener and it works like a charm... also since my hair is like a foot shorter, it's soooo much easier to straighten it. last time i did i think it only took me 45 minutes. THATS A RECORD! used to be an hour and a half minimum. haha.

also, i got some cute clothes to go with my cute haircut so i actually feel like a cute girl some days, instead of a bum every day.
OOH and i got BOOTS, for 10 dollars! at jc penney! i am officially the queen of clearance. haha.

i need to stop listening to goddamned paramore constantly.

i was bummed, the supposed 2 hour special was halfly that pre-premiere wrapup of last season. BOO. otherwise, cant wait to see where they're going with this season.

i thought i had other stuff to write about. hm.
oh, i had to get blood drawn when i went to refill my TB meds. they will do this every month to make sure my liver isnt exploding ... but normally use the finger-prick method like diabetes testing. so, their machine is broken so i had to get a vial of blood drawn instead. only, my veins are really really hard to get into. the 'good' ones are too scarred up from so many blood draws in the past, so they have to go hunting for other veins to use. i tried to tell them they had to use a vein in the top of my right hand but they insisted that hurts too much and tried 3 other sites to no avail. finally jab the vein i'd already mentioned twice, and eventually get their vial of blood. see? i told you so ! and it does hurt, but oh well. i wanna find out what's goin on with my liver cos i've been having some nasty side effects, which are too boring or gross to go into. that is my big story for the day.

what are you all up to ?

i tried working on a bunch of projects today. only got a few done. but one of them ! was to re-do my lj design again. i like it alot :D the mood theme that i picked is super gorgeous photos~

redid hannah monkey's lj style too. it looks so pretty !


talking to Justin about random crap like how i'm nuts and make every man who comes near me nuts as well, we got this glimmering bit that i will share with you:

Justin: you COULD just turn yourself into the church lady... 20 cats in the middle of nowhere, reviewing vibrators and toys for a late night tv show
that would be hot

*nod nod*